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let it rain.

if you haven't read my post, where i was going to start praying for rain, please go here and read it!

and then read this:

my God, above all else,

i did start praying for rain....
and i also started praying for someone specific in my life
to come to know Jesus in daily fellowship,
and not just as a one-time-long-ago Savior of their sins.

i started praying for this person fervently. desperately.
more sincerely than i've ever prayed for anything.
and i got to the point where i told God that i would accept

any means by which this transformation would come about.

i would do anything or endure anything that God would require of me.

and a few months ago, both my prayer for rain
and my prayer for this specific person's restoration...
were answered.
all at once.

And in that moment i met a new God.
i met a God who is faithful.
a God I never would have known were it not for this moment.

in the very moment that the bottom fell out from under me,
i was also instantly thankful. and instantly blessed,
instantly reminded of God's goodness.

and introduced to his Faithfulness

He prepares us for the trial
for days, weeks, months, years in advance.

if we allow Him, He will use little trials in our lives,

trials from other people's lives,
parts of His word that He's hidden away,
Bible studies that we've completed
that at the time we read them, didn't really apply to us.

He will always give us the exact amount of Grace
that we need for every situation.
in the moment we need it, He will give it.
Not before or after, but right then.

He builds up His Word, our reliance on Him,
our allowance for His Spirit working in and through us,
our knowledge of His forgiveness and grace.

He builds these up so high,
so that when we're walking on the tight rope
and the rope breaks...
we don't fall very far.
or very hard.

But we will never taste His Faithfulness, if the rope never breaks.

I can't stop repeating these words of Isaiah,
because the first time I read them they were a wonderful promise...

but NOW when i read them,
they are proven. they are Truth.
they are so much sweeter so much greater,
than before the day i met this God i call Faithful:

Isaiah 43:2

When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

what i did not know just a few short months ago,
that now i know more clearly than anything i've ever known:

'Tis sooo sweet to trust in Jesus.
because "He will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in Him ." (Is. 26:3)

Crazy as it sounds : Pray for trials, friends.
you WANT to know this God, believe me.


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