so i havent been around for awhile. i know. there was a time, for about six months, where i blogged 3 times a week and had posts planned, written and scheduled a few weeks in advance. i was trying to "grow my blog" but, quite frankly, it didn't work and i got burnt out. that's just the honest truth right there.
the thing is, lately i haven't had time and i haven't felt inspired to share anything. not at the exact moment i'm sitting at the computer anyway. i do miss it though. the few of you who were reading and feeling encouraged by whatever i shared... that was worth it, right? because sometimes it can be discouraging and it can feel downright defeating, like a waste of energy. putting your whole heart out there for 72 people to read and go on with their day. you wonder if it's really futile after awhile. if your time could be better or more wisely spent.
everyone likes to say that you should write whether 20 or 20,000 people are reading, but i wonder if that's really true, and do they realllly believe that? is that in the best interest of my family and is it the best use of my time and resources? when there are piles of laundry and dirty toilets and crying hungry mouths and just one.million.other.things? the sad thing is, if i were making money at this, i could give you a loud and resounding "YES! it's worth it!"
i know it sounds super shallow to say that but the reality for a lot of families (especially when you live somewhere like Southern California) is that the wife/mom has to bring in some kind of income. lots of the time she can do that from home which is a huge blessing, but it doesn't change the fact that she has to do it. so the time has to be managed accordingly. it's just part of life.
you knew there would be a but, right?
the thing is, i know that i need to write. if not for your benefit, then for my sanity. it's just how i am. i think a lot and usually have a lot processing in my mind at any given time. (that's probably why so many of my instagram posts have been getting longer and deeper lately).
so i'm not making any kind of official proclamation. i'm just saying you'll probably hear more from me in the coming weeks. hope that's okay.
oh, and forgive my little rant above.
i wanted to share this with you, too. something i've been thinking about lately, from my new favorite book of all time [here it is on kindle, too]
i made the little graphic with bubble frame + phonto (yes, on my phone)
[also, i thought i should mention that i'm currently typing this on my phone with the "blog go" app for blogger. that's part of why i thought i could start again. a lot more convenient!]